Summary of my second week progess

I have alots face of difficult things during that week because firstly i need to get a float to help myself float at the water.But i feel so embrass about it so i try to aviod swimming at the "peak" hour so to prevent been laugh by others.Next i am unable to conquer the fear of water at the every moment when i stare at the pool.So i stood rooted to the ground and my face is as white as a chalk.Luckliy i am been" saved "because at that very moment it is raining heavliy so i am unablew to swim at that moment of time.Although I am glad that it is raining but the other side of me is disappointed because i am still unable to swim and i miss the important chance to learn swimming at all.Therefore I am not sure wherther I have gain or lose something at all and I am quite confuse at that moment of time.